18.Cholly's situation against white mens

Yesterday discussed about Cholly's situation against white mens, he couldn't show him anger to them so because of this "emotion collection" inside him , he hated from Darlene although she didn't do anything.

This interperetion of Sonja has been the ice-breaker for me.

This is one of my biggest self-shiftiness.

When there is a person i like so much, i am being very very fool. I am realizing him or her disturbing specialities but to fear of ruining this love i am convincing myself like "Noo, he is not like that, he is just trying to do another thing...".

And that is interesting because by doing like that and not showing my anger to this people, this emotion is not being dissapeared. It is waiting inside me and when another person does the same disturbing-mistake i am showing my reaction to him or her very strictly because of this collection :(

I must give up doing this. If people will not want to hear my thoughts , although i love them so much , they must decide with themselves to be friend or not to be friend with me. And i am always being very sad about showing my reaction to another person like this.

I must face with this speciality of me...

Cholly is afraiding from the white-hunters because of fear. And i am afraiding to show my real opinions to people i love so much because of fear of losing them.

I know i used this place for very personal thoughts of me ,sorry, but in the lecture when i heard Sonja's inteperetation i was shocked and thought like "Oh, God! That is what i am doing !!"

17. Tragic Mulatta and others

While i was reading The Bluest Eye, i came across some familiar stuff. One is the concept Tragic-Mulatta and other is Shirley Temple. The first is material which i have used on my Research Paper. I want to give brief information,

There are three main groups of black women according to the stereotyping in media: mammy, jezebel and sapphire.(i am paraphrasing my research paper :D)

Mammy is fat, middle-aged, not carrying any ambitions like marry with a white man, cannot be sexy,very happy to serve whites, all the time they are smiling and laughing:

Jezebel is desirable and always sexy black lady:

And Saphirre is assertive, successful but unreliable lady who has obsessions about her appearance, romantic lover, precludes all woman who is trying to attract her male. (Şen, 2010) :)

And beside these there is one more stereotype , it is independent from these three, but in my opinion it fits more on sapphire type, Tragic-Mulatta. Tragic Mulatta is a character who is light-skinned. She is not white and she is not black. She acts like white people and has got higher statue however she is still being humiliated. Her biggest aim is to marry with a white man and live exactly like whites.

According to Kretsedemas, our era's tragic-mulatta character is Wilhelmina from Ugly Betty,do you remember her?

I think she is the future of Maureen Peal, especially the eyes and clothes :)

And other thing is Shirley Temple, when i opened and put my book in front of me in living room, my mother looked at it and saw the name "Shirley Temple". She said: " Ohh, i now it, she was beautiful,cute,lovely girl, we were watching her and we were doing our hair just like her. Why did they mentioned her in this book?" I described her Shirley's function in The Bluest Eye. It was very different from her thoughts :)
Pictures retrived from, 28 April,2010:
http://www.rankopedia.com/CandidatePix/33237.gif
http://www.ferris.edu/JIMCROW/sapphire/
http://www.ferris.edu/JIMCROW/jezebel/
http://www.ferris.edu/JIMCROW/mammies/

16. Our Presentation

On 29th March, we met at the University Center, and made our last checkings as a Black Team.
Than we went to Fasshane and waited for the lecture hour. When we got into class, Sonja was waiting for us. She was little bit sad because the other lecture's presentation group didn't appeared. And than we started to do our presentation. I think it was OK. But by the feedbacks we understood that we must improve some points of our presentation. For example everybody finds our historical context very long. And most of the people liked our graphs. Here is my feedback from audience. Is it ok to share my feedbacks at here?
Please notice me if it is disturbing.

Sonja's comments:
Positive points

• Team introduced and roles indicated on outline
• Images referenced
• Very nice interactive plot summary
  
• Questions in red; good, relevant, thought-provoking questions throughout
  
• Historical context provided: Freud, Sophocles
• Lots of audience interaction throughout: e.g. gap fills for audience to guess
• Very good teamwork
• Enthusiastic
• Extras, such as "Use of language"
• Brain diagram, Larry's "equation", Mother mind map, all very visual and very nice
  
• Lots of analysis of the text throughout

Points to improve

• Try not to read from cards, make eye contact and always use your own words
• Perhaps the thesis should have referred to the Oedipus Complex?
• Pronunciation of "Oedipus"... :)
  
• The summary of the Sophocles play was far longer than the summary for your story...and affected overall timing
  
• Make sure you follow up on audience responses with body language, facial expressions, words...
• Did your audience know what "ego" and "libido" meant?
  
• Check grammar and spelling on slides very carefully
• No need to read out final summary to us after eliciting it; we can read this silently
  
• Make sure your references are in proper APA format
• Remember the outline I gave you? Themes should be central, and you can examine character, etc. through the themes of identity

Positive points from students:
-Plot was well prepared . (Blank filling)
-Tables
-Coloured questions
-Attention catching activities
-Image referencing
-Funny Plot
-"Tender Words" :)
-Left-right brain
-The equation
-Use of language bölümünde karakterleri incelemek güzel.
-Left-right graphics were good.
-Adjective finding is fun.
-Connection with media is cool.
Points to improve from students:
-Questions must be showed on their time.
-Plot must be more short and blanks can be more well-knowned words.
-Historical Context: a little too much information
-Question before the summary of the text
-Thesis statement was too late
-Oedipus Complex Question was too hard and maybe unnecessary.
-No need to repeat(reread) the whole plot.

15. I was hiding =)

Photo by Shahram Sharif licensed under Creative Commons Attribution 2.0 Generic.

During the holiday i wasn't able to post because we were moving to another house and our internet connection was absent.

My holiday was lovely. I have finished my readings and cleaned this week for PROJ 102's "scary" progressive report. Although i missed my parents, when i was in Antalya i missed my friends and the atmosphere of Sabancı. Today i saw them and relaxed little bit and tomorrow by diving to lectures, it will be completed :)

At one day i decided to write my posts on a Word file, and i thought then i can post them when i went to campus. I wrote 3 posts, one for our presentation, one for my research paper and one for autumn section. But guess what? I shut down the computer without saving them although i saw the window's "Are you sure?" warnings because i couldn't recognize that i didn't save them. :( But i would write them more qualificated, i promise :)

I have read Bluest Eye, except the summer section, and i am looking forward to our class discussions. I will post about every section after the lectures which we will have our discussion.

I hope everything has gone well in your holiday,

By the way, the last post that Sonja wrote was very affective and i also wanted to highlight that we have only 5 week to end freshman year, well... :(

See you...

14. Thanks to Bibliography and Quiz

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While we were writing bibliographies we have to read our sources to describe in which ways we are going to use them in our research project. And thanks to the Quiz, we have to read Race Chapter to be prepared for terminology of stereotyping etc.

Maybe you are curious about why i am saying "Thank you" all to this things. Because unlike the ENG 101 my time-planning is very bad and i have to write my essay in 10 hours.

I was very stressed but i realised i have read my sources , now i must order them properly and do my best. And it is very big lesson for me i will finish my final-essay before 1 week from the deadline.

13. The Lottery

To be ready for next presentation i have read the Lottery by Shirley Jackson,

It was very different and impressive.

It was different because author created very peaceful atmosphere until we learn the real definition of the lottery. Everybody was exitement and waiting like there will be a happy event.

I was reading the story like "Hmm, who is going to win the fridge or the car, lets see..." while i was listening a happy music to increase my motivation :)

And then, i realised that the lottery is not that kind of lottery.

Two things in the story was very impressive, first was Mrs. Hutchinson's situation, second was children's...

Mrs. Hutchinson was describing one of "evil" parts of human beings.
When something is not directly related with us, we don't care it.

And childrens were representing that society imposes us this things as they are normal since we are child.

Like in the story, childrens are very happy about the situation and they are collecting stones and electing some of them because they are not suitable for throw. Because they didn't know what is wrong or what is true, just acting like the society which encircle them...