Tuesday, March 9, 2010

6. This "feeling" !

From last week to this week, nothing has changed. However i feel "awful".
Nothing giving me pleasure although everything is going perfect. Here i am in the one of the best universities in Turkey. Everything is flawless but i have that "feeling". I feel guilty about it because in the world there are lots of people with "real" problems. I don't want to study, i don't want to eat , i don't want to laugh... Why i wrote this post here is i feel like Benjamin, my future is cloudily, i don't know where i am going and something inside me pushing me to treat my closests coldly. These are very stupid feelings i want to get rid of them, i hope i will write more lovely posts as soon as possible.

4 comments:

  1. oh my god...trust me, you are not alone! this is actually exactly how i feel as well...and i know of other students who are feeling similarly...

    i think it could be a combination of things: low energy because of the winter that keeps dragging on, another full semester after a very short break, the second half of the same courses...we are all hibernating right now, waiting for spring..

    i hope you'll be back soon.. ;)

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  2. Oh there is a new "hot" word that i learned Sonja, thank you for your comment :) (Hibernate)

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  3. my dearest;
    we had awful weeks as our room but i hope we managed to get over that period:D
    i wish we could finish this term without any hibernates:D

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  4. Yes, with the help of weathers our "clouds" are going away too. ;)

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